On several accounts I have said that I was over you. But in my heart I know that I want this to happen. At least I’m content on where I stand with this person.
I can’t depend on anyone to make me happy. But I can’t make myself happy so I don’t know what to do. My big is leaving and I can’t be dependent on her keeping me in line and help me get my shit together. I’m hating my friends. There do nothing for me, but I do the world for them. My emotions are going everywhere. There’s no stopping that either.
Can I get more info from someone who has dissociation?
I honestly have never bottled this many emotions at the same time. I’m on the verge of crying anytime someone yells at me. I don’t feel happy. I just don’t want to be like this anymore. It’s crazy how much teachers can really effect your emotions and how you go about your day. After Jim called me unreliable I just wanted to drop right then and there. Also 2 women came in looking for Mary T and I took them to the theatre when I went to go look for her. When I found her I told her that 2 women are here for her. She bitched saying that I should know who they and are and what they want. Things like that are chipping at me and I can’t fucking stand shit like this anymore. One of these days I’m going to break. It’s horrible just thinking about it. I can envision myself doing it now and wondering what will happen during this break. I just need help and want life to go back to what it was.