I can’t depend on anyone to make me happy. But I can’t make myself happy so I don’t know what to do. My big is leaving and I can’t be dependent on her keeping me in line and help me get my shit together. I’m hating my friends. There do nothing for me, but I do the world for them. My emotions are going everywhere. There’s no stopping that either.
Can I get more info from someone who has dissociation?
I honestly have never bottled this many emotions at the same time. I’m on the verge of crying anytime someone yells at me. I don’t feel happy. I just don’t want to be like this anymore. It’s crazy how much teachers can really effect your emotions and how you go about your day. After Jim called me unreliable I just wanted to drop right then and there. Also 2 women came in looking for Mary T and I took them to the theatre when I went to go look for her. When I found her I told her that 2 women are here for her. She bitched saying that I should know who they and are and what they want. Things like that are chipping at me and I can’t fucking stand shit like this anymore. One of these days I’m going to break. It’s horrible just thinking about it. I can envision myself doing it now and wondering what will happen during this break. I just need help and want life to go back to what it was.
Does anyone remember the barbie video and it references Rosie O’ Donnell at the end and continuously kept saying OHMAIGAWD?
I’m in one of those moods where I don’t feel comfortable with myself anymore. Again. It’s like everyone I know is so confident with themselves and I still struggling to figure out who I am still. I know that my personality is not going to change and stuff from that nature but regardless people know who they like and have romantic relations with others and I’m just sitting here like a blob. Just there. It’s annoying that I can never have someone, ANYONE, to at least flirt with. It’s getting to the point that I’m getting really needy and it’s annoying me. I need to talk to someone about my feelings and pretty much anything but I don’t know where to start. I don’t know where this is going but I just want someone to love compassionately and be intimate with someone.